It is so easy to get pulled in this materialistic life and use retail therapy to feel better and to avoid one's ownself. We shop and watch TV to avoid facing our own reality. The truth about oursleves is bitter,so we try to run away from it.

When things are going good,this materialsitic life can seem to be perfect, but when there is a rough patch we need emotional support from our own self besides our friends and family. At that time we realise that in becoming so materialistically selfish ,we have not been there for our near and dear ones and now no one is there for us. I really do not like to meditate even for 5 minutes ,not becoz it is is hard to avoid thoughts ,but also becoz I might have to face the real me,from whom I am running away all the time by being so bz in office work,home ,dropping kids etc.

I need to face the truth and take a decision to improve the real me ,the one that does not need acceptance from others or tries to please others,but make my real me happy and satisfied.
I have wasted enough time in my life trying to get approval from others,now it is time to do what my inner self tells me to do. Wishing good luck to myself,I signoff for now.